Not Much and Everything

All of my reading and research keeps circling back to a frustrating conclusion: America’s current crisis runs deeper than I am capable of understanding. There are too many facets, too many fractures, too many nuances.

What I do grasp makes me want to hide, to retreat into my fiction reading list and never pick up another non-fiction book, never read another article or essay or blog post.

It feels as if everything I care about is under attack and there’s nothing I can do about any of it.

And, while nothing is an exaggeration, not much is the hardly-more-comfortable truth.

Even so…

Not much might be a fragile incentive, but it’s compelling when everything is at stake.

I recently read The Next American Revolution by Grace Lee Boggs. She refers a number of times to a quote from Mahatma Gandhi… Live simply so that others may simply live.

This, at least, I understand. Live simply.

Facets, fractures, and nuance.

I can help by living simply.

It is, indeed, not much. It’s also a tiny piece of everything.

“With the end of empire, we are coming to an end of the epoch of rights. We have entered the epoch of responsibilities, which requires new, more socially-minded human beings and new, more participatory and place-based concepts of citizenship and democracy.” Grace Lee Boggs in The Next American Revolution: Sustainable Activism for the Twenty-first Century (Updated and Expanded Edition)


Recommended reading (and viewing):

Spring Arrivals (Arachnophobia alert!)

Lantana April 13

As spring accelerates toward summer, everything is growing and blooming and nesting.

Succulent April 28

Live Oak April 17

Sun is the catalyst, speeding life along.

Hoverfly March 15

Ladybird March 16

Spiderlings March 25

Swallowtail April 19

Swallowtail Egg April 28

Swallowtail Caterpillar April 28

Blue gray Gnatcatcher April 13

Chickadee April 19

Cardinal April 20

Sometimes a shadow overhead interrupts the yard’s chirrup and flutter.

Eagle April 20

Eagle April 20

But spring resumes when the danger has passed.

Cardinal April 20

Robin April 20

Grackle April 19

Grackle April 19

Some afternoons turn sleepy with increasing heat.

Mallards April 27

Mallards April 27

Rabbit April 16

Rabbit Nest April 25

But evenings are cool and mosquito-free, perfect for exploring.

Rabbit Baby April 28

Perfect for sitting outside with a book, too. I haven’t been doing much writing, but I’ve been reading a lot, working my way through a stack of nonfiction, historical fiction, classic sci-fi, and poetry. Now I want to add a few graphic novels to my shelf. Any suggestions?

Monarch Caterpillars, Milkweed, and a Publication Note

Monarch Caterpillar Sept 27

After our successful Monarch Butterfly experience in 2014, I spent much of last summer eagerly anticipating a new crop of caterpillars. Late in September, they arrived.

Monarch Caterpillar Sept 27

Despite the fact that the milkweed was beginning to die back in anticipation of fall, the caterpillars molted through multiple instars.

Monarch Caterpillar Sept 28

Unfortunately, none of the caterpillars survived to maturity. Over a period of three or four days, I found a few caterpillar bodies curled under the milkweed, but most simply disappeared.

Monarch Caterpillar Sept 28

Frustrated by this failure, I moved the milkweed into what I hope will be a healthier location. I also added seeds given to me by a friend. The seeds haven’t sprouted yet, but the yard’s old milkweed seems happy in its new surroundings. So I am once again eagerly anticipating a new crop of caterpillars.

Milkweed April 17

According to the Journey North tracking map, Monarch Butterflies have been sighted in South Carolina and Tennessee. Hopefully, by the time they get to Virginia, the yard will be ready!

 

Publication note: My poem “Metamorphosis” (inspired by our 2014 Monarchs) posted at Poetry Breakfast on April 12th. Many thanks to editor Ann Kestner!

Swallowtail Setbacks

Swallowtail July 9

After last summer’s monarch success, I was eager to attract more butterflies to the yard. My sister-in-law frequently sees Black Swallowtail caterpillars on the dill she grows in her garden, so I planted a basket of dill this spring. A bit of online research convinced me to plant fennel and parsley, too.

Swallowtail July 9

Soon there were eggs.

Eggs June 6

Then there were caterpillars.

Eggs June 7

Eggs June 7

Dozens of caterpillars.

Eggs June 7

Dill July 14

Parsley July 14

And then the caterpillars began disappearing.

The yard has many caterpillar predators, but I suspect the house wrens were responsible for most of the swallowtail disappearances. I don’t believe any of summer’s early caterpillars survived, though new eggs constantly dotted the parsley leaves.

Parsley July 6

In late June, the caterpillars molted through four instar stages before the predators found them.

Parsley July 13

Parsley July 13

Parsley July 16

Parsley July 16

Parsley July 16

One evening I counted twenty-one caterpillars on the parsley. The next morning, all but one were gone. I spent half the day arguing with myself, debating the wisdom of interfering with the yard’s processes. (Past experience has taught me that nothing ever goes as planned. Complications arise.)

When the final parsley caterpillar disappeared shortly after noon, I caved. I dug out an old butterfly tent I had purchased on impulse several years ago and moved eleven caterpillars from the fennel and dill into the tent, adding “feed the caterpillars” to my daily routine.

Tent July 21

Tent July 22

They seemed content with the new arrangement, and proceeded to eat every morsel of the remaining parsley, fennel, and dill. When I had nothing left to feed them, I made a return trip to the garden store.

Tent July 20

(At this point, the part of me that had argued against adopting the caterpillars said “I told you so.”)

Tent July 20

Thirty dollars later, the caterpillars were eating again. There were twelve hungry mouths now, because one of the new fennel plants came with a new caterpillar.

Tent July 22

And the new parsley came with a chrysalis hidden deep within its stems, raising my possible butterfly count to thirteen.

Tent July 25

As any fan of The Hobbit knows, thirteen is not a happy number. So I wasn’t surprised when two of my adopted caterpillars died of unknown causes during the following days. But those deaths seemed as if they might be the end of my swallowtail setbacks, because the other ten caterpillars gorged until they were ready for their final molts.

Tent July 21

One-by-one they stopped eating and began roaming, exploring every inch of the tent. I couldn’t tell if they chose certain spots, or if they simply crawled until they were too tired to crawl any more. Whichever was the case, when they finally stopped, they belted themselves in place with a strand of silk and relaxed into waiting poses.

Tent July 24

And then they molted one last time.

Tent July 24

Tent July 24

Tent July 24

Tent July 26

Some of them made brown chrysalises, but most were green.

Tent July 24

Tent July 25

Before my ten caterpillars finished molting, the chrysalis hidden in the parsley opened unexpectedly. When we released the butterfly, it flew away too fast for photos.

Tent July 26

Two days later I woke to find that something had torn a hole in the tent, during the night, and destroyed four of the chrysalises.

Tent July 28

(The part of me that had argued against adopting the caterpillars might have muttered “I told you so” as I surveyed the damage.)

Tent July 28

Still determined to see butterflies, I took the tent apart and fashioned a new, stronger butterfly habitat out of a plastic storage container. Then the six remaining chrysalises began spending their days outside and their nights in the garage.

Box Aug 1

Box Aug 1

Today the first chrysalis opened, and the first butterfly emerged.

Box Aug 2

As I watched her fly away in search of nectar, the part of me that had argued in favor of adopting the caterpillars said, “I told you so.”

Parsley July 28

Next week, after all of my butterflies have flown away, I’ll adopt some of the new caterpillars that have recently hatched on the parsley, and I’ll start all over again.

Quiet Fireworks

Rabbit June 29

Our dog Indigo suffered from thunder phobia. During her aging years (before she lost her hearing) our entire household suffered from thunder phobia. I dreaded all of the fireworks holidays during those years.

Rabbit June 29

After Indigo lost her hearing, I was able to enjoy thunderstorms again (I’ve always been fascinated by storms), but I never regained an appreciation for fireworks. I find all the sparkle and flash I could ever want in the yard, without the sizzle and boom.

Flowers July 3

Dill July 2

Milkweed June 8

Marigold July 2

Caterpillar May 25

Dragonfly June 17

Finch June 28

Admittedly, some of the yard’s fireworks are more flash than sparkle…

Squirrel June 26

Squirrel June 26

Squirrel June 26

Squirrel June 26

Squirrel June 26

Fighting? We weren’t fighting…

Squirrel June 28

Squirrel June 29

rawr

Dragonfly June 29

I know that I’m not alone in my preference for quiet fireworks. What’s more, my discomfort is trivial when compared to the flashbacks that haunt many service members. (Here’s an article: “Fourth of July fireworks bring pain, stress for some service members.”)

Which brings me to a request. There are many, many holidays in the course of each year that are traditionally celebrated with fireworks. So there are plenty of opportunities to enjoy fireworks, if you enjoy them. But please refrain from lighting your fireworks randomly, between holidays.

Dragonfly June 17